There's No Place Like Home

I am finally going back home today. All this stress of not being there and not being able to have my own queen size bed is a tough thing to go through. But it is all coming to an end. I am going home today after school, I packed all my stuff last night from Jon and Michelle's and I have a total of 6 garbage bags and 1 duffle bag. The funny part is that it is all full of clothes except for 3 bags. But I am actually happy to go home, it's not because I missed living with my dad but it's the fact that I will be done school in 3 more months so I mine as well spend my time at home. And I have also missed living with my dufus brother. hahaha.
But yeah I am going home ... which makes things a whole lot easier on the rest of my family. What can I say ... I am finally growing up to make my own decissions.

Halloween Surprise

This halloween is going to be different from any other Halloween I have had. Thanks to Teri, I will be able to make it into Kamloops to visit Ryan. Now, the actual surprise is that he does not know that I am coming there to see him, Melissa and Justin know that I am coming, but Ryan doesn't. I am going to get Todd to pretend that it is the pizza guy (since we have to call their room to get into the front door) and then I am going to go knock on the door and it will be ME!
He will like the fact that I will be there. I miss him soo much since he has moved but I still do getta see him on weekends, it's just different since I don't getta see him EVERYDAY! I was there on the weekend and he is coming down here this weekend... But I am just excited that I get to surprise him for Halloween!!! WOOOOOOOT!!

Fun Time

On thursday I will be heading to Kamloops to stay there for the weekend, and I will be coming back on Monday at 12:30 in the morning since that is the only time I can actually catch the bus at. But anyway, my mom is also there staying with my sister and Justin and Ryan so I will finally be able to see her after 4-5 months. Which will be pretty awesome to finally see another family member that DOESN'T drive me crazy. But also, while I am there me and Ryan will be going to see Saw 4 in theatres and he will FINALLY be going to get his hair cut. He looks like a grub right now hahaha. Oh and I will be going into Viva to see ifthey have any good grad dresses there yet. Woot. Should be an awesome weekend. One stupid thing though is that my mom and melissa are going to see State Of Shock!! Well thats not the stupid part, the stupid part is that State Of Shock will be performing in a bar, so I am not old enough to go!! And it sucks!!!!!

Being A - P - A - R - T with distance

Having a long distance relationship is so hard, well it's hard for those who are actually in love.
Me and Ryan have been together for 11 months now, and we have been seeing eachother everyday for those past 11 months, but now he is back in Kamloops and I only getta see him every weekend. It's hard and upsets me only to know that I was the one who was left behind. Thats whats making it so hard for me. Imagine just seeing someone you love everyday of your life and then BAM now it is every weekend! Its a tough situation but I will not let that get in the way of us. I will not cry to make it harder to get through. It just sucks because I have so much fun with him and hes the one who puts a smile on my face everyday and makes me laugh. I am hoping that I get my correspondence finished before February so that way, I dont have to live like this anymore!
I LOVE YOU BABY! .:. Forever and Always! .:.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Driving

I AM NOW DRIVING! WOOOOOT!!! No, I don't have my "N" just yet but I have had my "L" for a whole entire year and never got the chance to go driving when I was living at home. But, now that I am living with my step brother, Michelle has been taking me out. Last night I got to drive to Kelly Lake and back, then in town, and then to Perto-Can! It felt so good. I finally feel like I am growing up because my dad never would have taken me out but now I don't have to worry about that. Now, I don't have to rely on Ryan to dive me everywhere. Since I already have my "L" ... as soon as I know everything and can drive really well I can go get my "N" without the wait!
Last but not least, I am blonde again! WOOOT! and I am going to Kamloops tomorrow to see Ryan.

Weekend news

Today is friday and I never went to school on the count of me being sick. It sucks. I got to sleep in till 11:00 though which was pretty sweet. But anyway, tomorrow Jon and Michelle are heading to Kamloops to go get some graceries and to go grab my hair dye. Yes I am going back blonde. My ACTUAL hair color IS dirty blonde so that I what I am goin back to. My blonde hair IS coming out from my brown hair but it is coming out tooooooo slow so I am just gonna dye it back.
But, other than that, Michelle has invited me and Ryan to start partying with her at her friends' places. Which is gonna be pretty sweet so we might end up doing that tonight or tomorrow night.
But other than all this, me and my sister are still not talking on the count of her being stuck up and making me look like the bad one when I haven't done anything wrong at all.... Sometimes I don't get her but I am at the point now where I just dont care.
-- My life is nothnig to brag about. It used to be, but now it's not. Everything is taking a wrong turn. The only thing I feel like I have left is Ryan and some of my friends. --

Wow

Wow, can my life get any worse than it already has? Yes only Teri and Nicole know what I am talking about. Here I thought things would soon start to calm down and I would be happy. But nooooooooooooooooo I was soooo dead wrong!!!! I mean, I have NO idea where I would be right now if I never had Ryan, or Teri or Nicole to talk to. I probably would have done something stupid. But I got a talk from both Ryan and Teri about that.
Alright lets see, my sister pretty much hates me for nooo reason at all, she said some pretty mean things to me like I how I was a screw up and blah blah blah, and Justin is being the disgusting guy he is and being perverted around me, ...... Aww I never wanna let go of Ryan. I hate men (well most men.) Hardly any of them can be trusted. And I am still living at Jon and Michelle's. I talk to my dad once in a while. But anyway the good part is that so far in my English 12 correspondence I got a 92%!!!! WOOOOOOT!
I love you Teri and Nicole. Soo sooo sooo much.